emotions

so we all live with emotions which some wreck us or make our day better but why do we feel the worst ones all the time just like depression everything changes into like slow motion movie scene like when the person dies or heartbroken moment i know it sounds so fake to some of you but wants you in it you'll understand we all suffer from our cracks and i been in so many which its great for me to blog about so emotions right depression don't lie we all have it but it really depends how bad it is some of us is like meh depression nothing i can handle this well your strong one a survivor while the worse is stuck in another universe we think we the only one and all alone and you feel like screaming and yelling for help yes I know you feel alone but there so many of us feel the same your not alone you feel world ending and crumbling under you or crashing down well it isn't  depression plays games with you just like a ghost does there is help so seek it there are people suffering to be there for them this is all meaning of BE THERE FOR EACH OTHER

struggle is real

so now the struggle is i use all my money on my account on mattress and yes as this sounds nasty im desperate for money im putting my talents in actual job and not hidden from public so i got the mattress today and now waiting for my bed my goal is making tumblr bedroom but one bedroom in pb teen site catologe its so american though i think they are from there honestly soon my room done its looking like american tumblr room from pb teen so close though only got mat and picture and bed decor to go designing is my hobby okay haha xo

my passion for music

the reason i choose music is because it saved from the pain and depression also the illness i struggle its the reason im alive and awake being happy everyday i live with it day after today wake up i hear music i sleep i hear music even in my dreams always dream about the good songs i can create but sadly forget in the morning til i bring out musical instrument and it comes up again i have enough songs to make album but never work on seriously til now i have told my parents friends and teachers i want to be artist to inspire the world with my songs so i can feel alive but they never take my notes serious i been doing singing groups like qior and performance in primary and high school then i realize im stage frighten cuz i always sing alone in the room or shower i cant play by notes on sheet or know it by head i need to listen feel and know the story also understand and make it my own way but i was never chosen to perform then i start making songs and practicing every break at school til now im making my own studio continuing making music and getting myself signed i had passion with music since twelve ive i play piano and made so many songs til i stopped and moved on sound techniques i use to perform for my family every special occasion music saved me and reason why im here xo

hate owners these days

so today was rough on edges got up got little bit of groceries and braces off which hurt thank god they finally gone then came back home finding the owner wants to sell thw house that we live like wtf i just settled in why do owners are bitches these days totally not kool about them doing whatever but sorry we cant get house in one mini second of a click atleast respect and think before you make your selfish move pfft owners can die alone

inlove with food

hey guys well you should know what this blog is about FOOD offcourse its best thing to taste in the world oh my glob i like ordered dinner last night aka loaded meatlovers,super supreme and bacon cheeseburger pizza yes not kiding it was the chefs best and its true totally inlove but thats not all cheese garlic bread and coke but wait for it the sampler pack desert it has mini donuts,pacakes and chocolate brownie to dip in chocolate fudge dipping so freaking inlove who ever created this whole thing and made my order i freaking love you forever MY NEWEST CRAVING HAHA